Lately I have found myself saying a lot more no’s and don’t do that/touch that or stop that. As soon as the words come out of my mouth I regret it and I am kicking myself for not finding a way to be more gentle in my words, in my approach and in my tone. It’s something I am battling with everyday; being a gentle person is not something that comes naturally to me.
I am a stubborn person. I can be hot headed and to say I am controlling and reactionary might be an understatement at times. The thing is I know these are flaws of mine and ultimately I don’t want to be this way and I don’t want to teach my children to have these attributes. So everyday I have to learn to slow down, to take a breath before I speak, to seek support from friends and my partner and to take stock of how I can improve, how I can be gentler parent and human being.
My parenting isn’t perfect and I am constantly learning how to be a better parent, partner and citizen of the world. Each day I attempt to take a step towards a more positive, gentle and caring life. Somedays I take a few steps back but everyday I am pushing forward, learning from my mistakes and trying to be better.
Being a parent isn’t always easy but to be cliche being a parent is one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. I am learning so much from these two special beings who have entered my life and learning how to be a better, kinder and compassionate human being. So here is taking a deep breath, slowing down and giving more love.